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No, Kaveh is an exception for me in many ways that aren't just my attraction to him. And I'm the only one Kaveh has wanted to choose.

[His eyes narrow slightly in thought. Yesod is looking for perspective and confirmation, so where does he link his and Kaveh's situations with Yesod, Netzach, and Midnight?]

Though I would have accepted if the only way to have him was to share him with someone else, it's irrelevant because we view each other different than anyone else. Kaveh won't give Netzach or Midnight a chance, but he'll be selfish and claim me. No one else could possibly be Kaveh, and no one else has ever been someone I wanted to keep so closely in my life.

But if you don't want to restrict him from other people, are you looking for a way to manage your feelings of selfishness in the face of Netzach having another partner?

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[ Yesod frowns at the distasteful truth of his irrational emotions, though he gives Alhaitham a nod in confirmation. ]

...That may be the most concise way to summarize it. Unlike you and Kaveh, Netzach and I remained under the impression that our respective feelings were one-sided for too long. Of course he would welcome more accessible options presented to him in the meantime, which he shouldn't deny himself for my sake. While what I feel for Netzach is unique, much like our shared history, and he has essentially promised himself to me, I do not want him to live inside a cage because he fears causing me pain. No one would be happy then... Sharing him is preferable.

[ It's more than enough to accumulate better memories together, now that they have the chance, from their earliest taste of it to Netzach welcoming him home for the first time, in their shared room. If the future holds more of the same, that would be enough, too. It would be pleasant to have that to offer and to keep.

Yesod looks at Alhaitham, pensive. ]

...How do you and Midnight view each other, by the way?

[ Earlier, mentioning Midnight had prompted an unexpected response. ]

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[Too long. Of course, Netzach surely doesn't have quite the self hatred Kaveh does it else Kaveh would have had anyone else well before Alhaitham had the chance to be honest. Of course, if Kaveh had less self hatred maybe he would have just decided to woo Alhaitham while they were students.

That's a nice thought.

Not really relevant to the conversation, though. Unfortunately, managing his feelings in the context Yesod is needing to just isn't something Alhaitham has had to do. Or would do.

There's a pause.] We don't really get along. Consider it a conflict of personality.

[That's a careful way of putting "nervous and distrustful".] It doesn't have anything to do with him being in love with Kaveh, but there's no point in getting into it right now.

[Although, given the initial point of the conversation he's curious:] What do you think of him?